Jul 2007
23

Pieces of Me

by Desirai in Uncategorized

Being back home, reading old letters, seeing old friends, it’s all leading back to old pieces of me. Some pieces are unrecognizable while others are vague memories. Who did I used to be? Who am I now? A changed person that’s for sure. I wanted inner peace and I’m so much closer to it now than I was three years ago. I was a worrier, sometimes (a lot of times) to the point I gave myself anxiety. I meet people like that rather often now. I wish I could give them a piece of advice they’d believe. It took a while to believe it myself, but all these changes I’ve made, they were conscious decisions. Decisions to stop worrying, to stop thinking and vocalizing my insecurities, to stop freaking about all the little things that kept happening to me that were beyond my control, and lastly the decision to believe that everything in my life is the product of a conscious decision.

It’s so strange to look back at things I’ve said, written and experienced. So weak and so helpless, who was that person?

I just found an old poem I posted on an a message board in 2003. Although deep down I knew it was my creation I still couldn’t help but think; Did I really write this? Who was it about? What was thinking or feeling at the time? Hey this is pretty good…

That last thought is must amusing to me considering I vaguely remember not liking the poem when I first wrote it. Now however, as a different person, I’d like to share.

A Collection of “If Only”-ies by Desirai Labrada

If I could burn
Memories like leaves
I’d stack them real high
And set them ablaze

Watching the smoke as it rises
The ashes as they fall
Hoping and praying
The wind would just carry them away

But memories of you
Are like snowflakes
I catch with my mouth
That melt on my tongue

I’m so thirsty
Still wanting to drink of you
Though these limited snowflakes
Just aren’t enough

If I could break
Memories like glass
I’d be sure to recycle
And make something new

I’d make something useful
So that the original is forgotten
And I’d pretend
It’s what I’ve always wanted

But memories of you
Are like fine china
That waits behind protective glass
For those special occasions

Painted with perfection
It’s beauty unmatched
Collecting in dust
Yet rising in value

If I could throw away
Memories like garbage
I’d tie up a bag full
and leave it out on the street

It would wait there alone
In the cold, in the rain
To be picked up by someone
And I’d be absolved of my pain

But memories of you
Are like diamonds
Which cut straight through glass
Unintentionally sparkling, they get my attention

If only I could afford you
I’d make you my own
I wouldn’t get rid of these memories
That make me feel so alone

If only I could pay
With my talent, intelligence and wit
But I still can’t afford you
As for this bag full of memories, well – I’m just not done with it.

 

Jul 2007
22

Harry Potter Midnight Madness

by Desirai in Uncategorized

After waiting over 40 minutes for car service, I met Jeff at an awesome little Italian restaurant on 7th avenue called Sotto Vocce. The food was amazing. I had veal rolled in prosciutto with wild mushrooms in a brandy sauce and garlic mashed potatoes. Delicious!

We ordered a bottle of White Zinfandel wine and enjoyed our meal while watching witch costume dressed passersby heading towards various bookstores in the area. There was even a table full of girls in Hogwarts uniforms diagonally from us. During dinner Jeff mentioned how long the line outside of Barnes and Noble had gotten (it was only 9:00 pm at this point) and we both agreed we were glad about getting our wrist bands in advance.

After eating dinner we tipsily walked over to Barnes and Noble at around 10:45 pm. The line started in front of the store on the corner of 6th street and 7th ave and went all the way around the opposite corner (5th st) heading towards 8th Ave. It was then that Jeff and I laughed, realizing that if we hadn’t already put on our bracelets they might have actually been worth some money.

First in line was a group of four girls. They were sitting in a large paper mache replica of Ron’s flying car complete with protruding tree branches (from the whomping willow I suspect.)

Once inside the store I was able to take a picture with a huge painted Hagred which I believe was painted to be life size. Needless to say, it was huge. Downstairs we were required to stand in line to enter the children’s section where they were having potion demonstrations, arts and craft activities, Polaroids being taken with a Harry Potter cut out, and lastly a palm reader. By the time the potions demonstration was done, I had regretted standing in line to even get in. At this point it was nearing 11:30 pm and I figured we might as well take our place in line to get our books.

The A line started in the first section of shelves right outside of the children’s area. I was standing until I started to feel hot and nauseous. Sitting on the floor was necessary though I was afraid I’d get trampled once the line started moving. It was from that angle that I took the bookshelf shot which you’ll find in my Harry Potter Midnight Madness Party set on Flickr.

When the line finally started moving it went incredibly fast. Every cashier was open and ready with prepackaged book filled bags. As I paid for my book I could hear shouts of “Keep the line moving!” and “Please exit as soon as you’ve gotten your book!” Outside the corner was overcrowded by people with cameras taking snapshots of those walking out with their books. If I had known they were outside waiting I would have held up my book and posed. Alas, I missed a good photo opportunity though it’s quite alright since I took a few shots of me and Harry the next day.

I guess it’s good this is the release of the last book. I’m pretty sure I would not go to another one. It seemed that there was more exciting things going on at the Barnes and Noble in Union Square including interviews with Hagred, stilt walkers and balloons falling from the sky. I’m now questioning as to why I didn’t go to that Barnes and Noble instead.

All in all I didn’t feel it was worth the time to get the bracelet, stand in line at midnight, or witness any of the activities being held in the children’s section. Perhaps if I had let the palm reader read my palm she might have told me that I was wasting my time and that I was better off at home sleeping. I’m not sure why I felt I needed to have the book at midnight since I didn’t really start reading it till the next day anyway. I wonder how many emails I’ll get in reference to my blasphemous words (lol).

So you see… I’m not a fanatic after all.
Anyway, here are a few links for those that are:


Union Square Midnight Madness Party

Barnes and Noble Harry Potter Store
Harry Potter Book Clubs
J.K. Rowling’s Official Site

 

Jul 2007
21

Budweiser Commercial

by Desirai in Uncategorized

I just came across this while reading Manny’s blog. I have to share. Did this commercial actually air? I don’t watch enough TV to know, so leave a comment if you’ve actually seen this. It’s even better than “my BFF Jill?”.

There will be more on the Midnight Madness party later. I took some pictures and will be developing them today. Stay tuned!